Looking back at my late 20s which was 20 years ago..it was fun at the time, even titillating. Calling my dealer, meeting up, buying the gram or whatever, and then planning the night. Doing the first line before leaving the house. Going to the club or party and then the after hours. And then finding myelf still awake at 11am having finished all the cocaine, all the booze and all the cigarettes.
I am so glad I only lived that life for a short time because it would have killed me. So many times tempting fate with my health, the police, shady people, dangerous situations.
I was disrespecting myself by polluting my system with poison and thwarting my progress in meaningful areas of my life.
Coke, MDMA, booze, tobacco, Xanax, ketamine. I did all of it for about 2 years. Great fun, not gonna lie. But it comes at a cost. I developed depression and anxiety and I'm convinced it was drug induced.
The mental health issue I faced have had repercussions to this very day. So even though I'm far removed from that party scene and even though I was in it for a short while, I'm still living with those decisions.
The sooner you drop your party drug habit, the better. If that means dropping some friends, do it.